Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Shameover

I'm feeling pretty quiet, lately. I've noticed that the less attractive parts of my personality have become enhanced by my pregnancy, and it seems garish to have them out here on display so regularly.

I mean, how petty and small am I to be complaining about anything? I am pregnant! I know many, many women who would gladly take my place, and do so gracefully. They wouldn't complain about dress sizes, or their funny husbands or any of the other silly things I've recorded for posterity thus far.

I know that I want to remember this, all of this- but man, I'm awfully fucking whiny.

Does my gratitude seem evident? Or am I spending this precious time complaining? I can't seem to see the fine line today. I am grateful. More than I can ever say.

I think I'll ride out the rest of this shame hangover in private. "Private" here meaning crying on the phone to my mom and my aunt, of course.

4 Comments:

Blogger knocked her up said...

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1:31 PM  
Blogger knocked her up said...

Just because your complaining doesn't mean your not grateful, don't let anybody tell you differently. I sure you complain about me sometimes but everybody knows how grateful you are of me. You can complain all you want just continue to do a great job of bringing our baby into this world. THATS ALL THAT MATTERS!!!!!

1:31 PM  
Blogger Claire...the Ann Arbor Hippie said...

Oh, Kel! Please don't be so hard on yourself! It is REALLY REALLY hard to stay positive and sunny when you feel so funky inside and outside. You are only normal, woman! Really. This is normal. It's ok to not be in love with pregnancy. Like this book http://images.amazon.com/images/P/1580629342.01._SCLZZZZZZZ_.jpg

See... you are not alone, my friend. Yes, yes, you are blessed. And, yes, you feel gratitude. And YES, it's ok for you to feel snarky!

Sending you so much love, Kelly.

Claire
P.S. I have no clue why I keep losing my account. I think maybe it was seen as lewd. I've created my 3rd now and have taken any mention of failed birth control out of it.

7:53 PM  
Anonymous WindyCity_Allison said...

Kelly, don't feel bad! These people are the ones that need to worry about their shameovers: www.shameover.com

10:47 AM  

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